the morning dew

Thank you for giving me the life I needed
and cherished me with the unfaded smile.
whispering me the air that never fail to fill my lungs
and make the sparrow sing at times when the sun forgets to smile
Bless me with ol' memories of the past.
and let it dives into the sensitive side of me.
fill it with all the regrets that I wanted to forget
so I can look at the mirrow and see the reflection of my
own enemy.
let the window be opened
and be the morning breeze caress my face
waltzing gracefully to the sound of morning dew.
the beauty of clouds...
the freshness of the trees...
the joy of children...

God and me

my days are bright
so bright it burns my eyes.
yet i never once complaint
for having to live such days are a bliss.
i feel at peace.
so peaceful i could sing you a song
a song that no one has ever heard of
yet it mesmerizes the heart of everyone
my smiles are pure
for nothing in this life i want to keep a secret
so everyone can smile like me
and live happily.
my life has no ending
for someone will continue it for me
though I might not ever know him
I wish him the best nonetheless
the nature has been kind to me
take me as his friend
and embrace me like a son
If I ever want to thank him
let it be now than tomorrow...

addiction

seven years of serendipity
cannot make me go away
this black clouds will only set its tendency
of my years of adolescence
will it break me at last?
will I be happy with all i have known
to whom this story should be told
only God knows the end
every tap of my shoes
taking me to the land of unnecessary
the heavy burden that i bear
slowing me down and keep me all at bay
i long for someone to touch me
not on my cheek but my heart should she
but knowing i live by my own
in this house of solemn
waiting to rot if nothing should happen to me
though i sad, though i am happy
be it to my soul
and let everything shower my scenery....

zariesworld
pouring

i, the saviour

I, the Savior

The Lust of woman
To whom I love…
The pain she carries
Of which I caused.
The smile reflected of a serial lover
Connected by tiny dots
Of the longest dream
The call of aid
Only that I will answer
Not truss by promises
Not times can hold thy back

weehey

weehey

The creaking sound of the door...
Yellow with nasty gold knob that I could never understand
Why it matches…somehow.
The same old boring faces
That willingly fake their smile and lied to
Their brutish, incomplete and ugly faces.
The sanity perceive by the trapped.
Hoping that something can occur out of the ordinary
Anything…as long as it can change the routine...
The rhyming sound of click.
Made by, god knows how many fingers
That thrust inside and crushes it into the silly computer
How annoying to hear it every day but some how manage
To capture the interesting part of the job.
I can never understand it.
Blue cubicle placed at each side of each other
With just a little window suffice to peek at the neighbor
To smug them by silently telling them that perhaps my
Salary is higher than you
Or my chair is much comfortable than yours
Or maybe I am a better looking than you!
How I enjoy the serenity of this silent and unspoken space
Having to laugh as hard as I could inside without any sound of twitches
And the superior sluggish face overlook.
Ready to extend their power, unwillingly accepted by the inferiors.
I am free in the prison created by me
I am eternal by living in this temporary life
And I am rich by accepting that I fed on my forever happiness..

good Will hunting

Good will Hunting

If I ask you about love
You’d probably quote me from a sonnet
But you can’t tell me what it feels like
To wake up next to a woman and feel truly happy.
Never looked at a woman and been totally vulnerable.
Known someone that could level you with her eyes
Feeling like God put an angel on earth just for you
Who could rescue you from the depths of hell
And you wouldn’t know what it’s like to be her angel.
To have that love for her be there forever.
And you wouldn’t know about sleeping and sitting up in a hospital room
For months holding her hand.
Because the doctors cud see it in your eyes
that the terms visiting hours
Don’t apply to you.
You don’t know anything about loss.
I doubt you have ever dared to love anybody
That much.

life...a philosophy

did summer talks when you told
that there was nothing left in between
or was it just me smilling sarcastically
to the sign of our bonding scheme
sure it had no mean when necessarilly add to it
but we all know somehow it will hunt us down
like a mad dream in the middle of the coldest weird night
everything we have ever poured in between lies and honesty
how sweet when we were at our teen
but life twitches at us through and through
and left us dying to blame our discreet lameness
that everything is never enough and never loved
we are surely the creature of unforgiven
so try to think if that the brain is suppose to
is this the life we ever wanted or is only it?
maybe ought to give by the passing motions a think of
but eventually the question and the aftermath will linger still
until we understand what is what and why is everyting in this life.

earth

the sun walks through the valley of the doom

where it lays its tired hands in motion

ready to give up the glory of thousands of years

beaming endlessly to our separate souls.

and pour our head with the love of God's

the end is near they say

too many distruction done in so little time

creatures that seemed to

we..are those who forfeit

and diversified in layers of the opposites

soon to be crunched for our own stupidity

and mistified by the mystery that we never had a chance to discover

are we not human enough?or we just never was?

the existance that never quits

and surrender to the enigma and paranoia

give our land the chance to live

for her grace has long desperate to break free

and how she deserves it more than anyone of us do

let we be the only reason we see

you had chose me

with dying heart

that night you were my sunshine
so radiant, blissfull in the world of your own
beyond everything that lies in our imagination
like a sparrow that hanged on the top of the highest sky
you smiled towards me...
in an instant i knew i worth nothing to you
just a petty being in a crowds of diamonds and silks
you came towards me...
i had my life that i knew i can never earn it
not in a hundred years not forever
watching you gazing was hard for me to disintegrate on the air of that night
but if there were ever doubts, you certainly not a part of me
for as hopeless i am to you, you cast a pretty unthinkable image
with that coral on your top figure
and that evenstar glowing from below
and that end me up nicely
to the end of my only hope
but no matter, you had chose me
your sip of drinks were like the immortal
forever there...untouched.
beauty with persona...deadly in control
i justify it with nothing i could ever conjured
but that's the beauty for you had chose me.


zariesworld
inspiration
3.06pm
6nov07

your angelic face

your angelic face





you were a white cloth

that knows no bounderies

timeless in beauty...

exquisite with such smiles you gave to this world

brightens every corner or this darken heart

and relishing me to such atmosphere i never have been before...

every step that you took

in crossing the path of such dry, such beauty as i looked straight to you

your angelic face

every words count as i read your horror end

in the hands of preying monster

i could not even start

as for nothing i endure could ever ease a thousand pain left...

go to the place of forever

for your dearly beloved memory stays with me

and soon i will follow

and pray hard that i go

to the only face i know worth of looking

worth of everything

only you...your angelic face..

zariesworld
-20th sept 07-

sober

when her hope gets sober
dont tell him that you want to be here
sharing the same umbrella
shaltering from the same rain of stars
in the middle of a night...
and then he goes
leaving her with no chance of explaination
because maybe he just knew that what's right is right
and dont ever meddling with the balance
for in the end she will eventually smile
and perhaps still love him
until the hope may finally get sober
the days were sulk with pretty faces
sour lines crumpled as they never thought it could happen
between two path of opposite lane
they must go.in a separate way.
the sun rises as a roman empire
claiming as it is superior than anyone of them
and yet they stand still...unchanged
waving her young hand away for him
dropping her crystal faded cry
and fake smile...asking him to never be.

the rise of Nazism

the sun rises at the dawn of western block
in silent it grows stronger everyday
like a river that sees its end of everything
nothing could ever stop them from the rising

years of oppression and discrimination
living in horror as the bombs and bullets becoming our heir
side by side corpses waltzing proudly at the beginning of their journey
naked with sovereignty...

look deeply in the eyes of the children
do you see hope glitters in surpression
do you see life after your death
or evil galloping your destiny...

make this our fiction of true greatness
for nothing could dismiss the chance of redemption
and let the future sees us in awe
and let them remember we dare ourselves against any odds

rise the people of aryan...
linger in the new light of power among the hunger
forward in your step of greatness
and rule our forefathers for the thirst of glory

zariesworld
1984

mimpiland ep2

mimpiland ep2

the door seems so far from my reaching
the very oak like door with that golden knob
engraved in classical roman mystery
that i knew before my time

i was so sure i have once visited it
stepped beyond it sometime i forgot when
linggered inside it but i know where
but i did..

it was like a land so vast from us
covered with beautiful colored flowers
of lilys, roses, orchids and daffodills
dancing gracefully in morning face

i remembered the tall oak tree that sits in the middle
of this weird black pond..
but somehow seem so alive with the light that came from within.
red yellow and green dots of fishes cherishing my presence..
i knew i saw pheonixes dancing in jubilation in the sky,
the sky was purple. so different than one i recognized before
far from the place i stood,there were movement of creatures
hairiest i have ever seen but some how so mystical they enchanted me
singing an unknown anthem that sooths my heart...

it was too fast to remember anything.
it was suddenly dark and i felt my body flying
everything dissappeared in slow motion
and no happy thought remains inside

i could swear i heard thunder..
but deep in me i knew it was not
so loud the voice it trembles my veins
so angry it almost sound like a volcano errupt...and so i closed my eyes.

i was awake in silence..
to notice that i am all alone
in this cube like corridor that fill with white colour
and a shining light at far end of it..

zariesworld
5.55pm
mimpiland

syurga

syurga

syurga itu ada pada sana
di hati, di minda dan ada pada cara
segala yang telah tercatit dan sedia terbuka
sekali-kali tidak tergapai jika itu yang kita pinta

Syurga itu hidup dalam kehidupan
dengan rasa segala pancaindera
setiap masa yang tak pernah terjangka.
namun begitu halus jika difahami
syurga itu milik kita

syurga wujud telah sekian lama
selamanya di hati dan cara
tidak tercapai bagi yang terlalu menjangka
tidak tertawan bagi kita yang suka melawan
dan gagal dalam neraka dunia.

syurga kau tetap di hati
dan tetap dengan cara semoga manusia bahagia
memahami kau wujud sekian lama
dan biar senyum biar tertawa

zariesworld
9.38am
2/August/07

mushy****Mushy

that rainbow that i know
that sunset that i love
that sonnets that i write
is the only answer of why i wont stop

that voice that i hear
that lips that i touch
that fun that i sense
is nothing sort of any person can give

that confidence that i proud
that dependent that i like
that romantic that i feel
is truly appreciated by none but me

your way of talking
your way of laughing
your way of arguing
is the only way for me to keep loving...


zariesworld
5.27 pm

tuah

Tuah

when the days are old i will see you in a graceful dear
so gloomy the clouds will when i return home
for nights have swore its faith to my faithful vangeance
and i have nothing inside to fear but a burden to bare
so cold it shivers my bone when i was told you did what you could have ever done
to see you welcoming me back with no mercy for i shall showed you none
though your breathe mingle with the death itself
i will follow as what is mine to finish and surely it stays at where it should ever be
tempt me with the power of the superior
for them have dispised me so disgracely with nothing but a life to spare
and i owe them none but your life
for i remember that never once i asked to cross the Yellow line.
your betrayal is nothing sort of a coward
turning your back on our forefathers
and murdering the treaty that we once hold so bravely
and for that i wish death has its mercy upon your soulless body
dignity is all i bare
for nothing pleases me when see your blood fill my lust
for i will forever remembered as one who follows
and you will die as one with love and forgotten son...

zariesworld
5.05 pm
22/july/06

grace and lonely

your wrinkles cracked when i see u laughs
grey hairs that rock my heart off
when i will forever be your dear
beautiful shining eyes that could only say it all
that i want to grow old with you
your body trembles with love
aging flawlessly like a queen
when i see your face telling me
perhaps my dear, the world has gone wrong
and we should grow old together
you speak as nothing worries
even sometimes it makes me feel clumsy
but for your sweet dendallion petals
i die just to have your love
and we could grow old forever..

10.16pm
02july07
zariesworld

heaven's eyes

heaven's eyes


you,
yes you.
the one with heaven's eyes.
that melts away my days
the one with silly weird nose
but never failed to carve happiness within my soul
your smiles that sooth my doubt
the smile of thousand tears
yes you.
forever in me, such a tragedy.
you created a world with your kindness showed to me
a world of your's that i inside it
grateful and symetry, casted perfectly in a jungle clouds of thing beyond
a feeling.
with the heart of the kindness person.
love of such superior.
and touch of a soft angel.
you.
the women i only love.
the one i have truly ever....

zarie's world

life is beautiful

purple blood of november
turns to blue in April that summer sings its lullaby
dancing with crowds in the month of december
where sweetest taste of God's rain pouring on old verendah

early morning where we got up from dad's ragged bed
strolling flawelessly to see the petals shine its sight
in the afternoon we sat. with mom's tasty sambal belacan
at night we stared towards the darkness and stars prevail.

it was twenty years ago.
when i was only a child but life thought me to be an adult
where life is beautiful when you are only a child
and life is so grateful to you

those were really the days i supposed
we laughed and cried for the beautiful part of honesty
keeping no secrets between you and me
those were the days when i was a child.

ephrodesiac

forget all my swearings if darkness prevails
remember my lacking if your only intention is leaving
for never i in awe of the beautiful game they played
and you that can only justify it

so i am the ever adressed black sheep
that is so maticulously hard to be pleased
and failure to some for only wanting to make me happy
and you that can only justify it

why should words need to be place accordingly
where the matter is only the meaning.
why should it be easily changing
and you that can only justify it

so half of you is somewhat vague
where i found it funny that used to be me
questions that need to be ask
and you that can only justify it.

so long i have wait
only to be told that life is unfair
but nay i must say
for life is sweet for those who dare to taste it...


5.01 pm
22june 07
zariesworld