Monday, December 20, 2004

perang yang tak pernah sudah

perang yang tak pernah sudah

hati ku terus bergoncang
akan perang yang amat melelahkan
suara tangis si anak kecil diam membisu tatkala semua terang
warga yang lesu berlari kedinginan terus berlari
tiada penghujungan....
hati mereka tetap membatu
walau darah terus mengalir
seakan singa yang tak pernah puas
mereka terus melapah si hati yang pernah suci....
harapan yang mengunung seakan tinggal cebisan
akibat letupan si pengempur yang tak pernah kenal kedamaian
apakah yang tinggal bukan sekadar kenangan
hati yang gelap akan terus kegelapan.....
selamatkah mereka yang tinggal dipenuhi haramnya darah
merentas waktu memusuhi tuhan
relakah hidup dimamah dosa silam
hentikan semua ini jadikan pendinding ikatan.....
perang yang seakan tak pernah sudah
sekian lama membosani jiwa-jiwa kering ini
semoga terang si matahari membasahi mata
dan kedamaian Ilahi kan kekal sedunia.....
4.11 petang
20th desember 04

Friday, December 03, 2004

inside our brain you figure it out

inside our brain you figure it out

the sound of silence is hard to differ
for whom i speak along the way to minggle
i speak what i am not and damn what i desire
but god knows my heart is all in fire
i think what others not
possibility is hard when i found it lingers
yet i discover and i enjoy my sole in fear
because in shape it screams than my brain is out
can you really tell what your heart desperately wants
what it says and shout it out loud
how well does it percieve when the world is all dark
working endlessly days and night with no time refer
figure this thing out and you find your way in luck

3th december 04
never think of it before

Thursday, December 02, 2004


the difficult part of life is the life itself.

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

elfie (love,hate...tragedy)


i lean as it goes without a remedy
sacred pain i suffered as my life started this holy tragedy
my heart stumbled when they choked my innocent baby
crying and crying let him go my precious Elfie.....
another picture of hatred streaming flawlessly beneath his angelic eyes
telling me that he has enough of this having all those innocent lies
what they actually know when the feeling is merely strapping on the dice
waiting the death to come and bring him up above the promises sky
i look at him with all the love that i possessed
praying to god alone let this be just another test..
as the time goes by i can clearly see in his eyes
weakeaning endlessly my dear this is all that i fear
i saw the misery and exchange my deal to die
but gently he refused by the blinks of his eyes
so he closed his eyes and throw one last smile
the most sweetest smile i've seen in alfie's life
wednesday 1.12.04
5.23 p.m

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

an apple for us..

i lay my trust for you to differ
between good and bad what not in those paper
is happiness you seek i promise you my dear
somewhere in the middle i will see you later

above those mountains swim across what rivers
to heaven we fly away from this majesty fear
i love you dear and i make it all clear
hold me tight tonight and make this unchainted dream feels like forever.....

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

i am a slave....

an image of pearl came down last night,
a secret of world yet not purely discovered.
waiting aimlessly myself trying hard to press
sooner or later my friend we will open up the chest.

so far away i lay my trust
alone in the dark hoping for somekind of luck
give me a clue and i shall present it to you
for God has send me here and i'm just a little slave my dear...

will and might are all too obvious
a secret deep and a life fully remembered
a thousand stars flying high so far
never wondering why everything seems so fine

walking endlessly here i long have suffered
i scream and shrieks when it meant nothing no more
i know my time is merely near
but to be on the wrong side is all i fear.
ramadhan al-mubarak

Thursday, September 30, 2004

the messiah

it comes by itself through the hollow dark
searching for a victim's heart mingled in a ringled park
never full of himself he created his own deliberium
on a scale of the death he screams for a little beg

with it might he crawls a thousand night
again and again he stumbled and tears coming like fogs
he was reborn with a body to fond
as a soldier of fire he wonders without a fear

lust and dust fill the crust of brain
he faced the lace and set up his pace
another yet to lose he regain his nest
and charging far forward searcing the only face

everything that counts he has lost the pain
the lights revealed and the game has end
so he back again to the fire of vain
return of evil to his mount of doomed

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

they just dont bother

they just dont bother anymore
about all the things that makes us all pure
to stand up tall and dare to be different
and shout it out loud away from this total bore
we're not a freak when we lose our peak
time is so much expensive when we stand massive
experience that we gained is better than the taste of sacred pain
the feeling of the rushing blood is merely across the lane
for the thing that had happened just let it all happen
a year around and those everlasting dawn
we will again come forward with guns
to claim our rights as the freak on the run.........
1.41 pm
16 sept2004
for my fellow revo...

Thursday, August 26, 2004

enigma( little journey)

now that i'm here so long away from home
a little far journey has yet for me to started
an imagination is all that i have ever roam
wondering aimlessly my brain is all jaded

would it be fun if i somehow run away from sun
would it be weird if people saw me crying naked
but that is what the risks i long should have done
a flickering noise i desire calling me leave all the those stupid cards

history again makes people able to defy
truthfulness is cheap but matter not cuz its fine
that is what i will do even i hate to try
for i have sold now the soul inside no longer is mine

Friday, August 20, 2004

emily is dying

emily is dying

from the hollow voice of the thick wind
by the edge of this ocean scream
the light is'nt entering
do you care my friend that emily is dying

this red blood i once shared is getting bleak
the breathe long i remember whispering deep
how could i forget this moment of kingdom tragic
sweet looking passion me cuz' emily is dying

i blame you soul for not seen me angry
i curse you tears for you put me in custody
why must i plead when her hands are getting weak
leave her alone cuz' please emily is dying

the side of she will remain rich inside of me
for now angel has come and i have to let it be
for a moment i weep to know that emily is gone
as the angel smile i know that life must goes on

3:14 p.m
emily is dying

Tuesday, August 17, 2004

the song of the eagles

eagles sing eagle cries,
for him to run away from guns,
to seek revenge among those fangs,
a peacefull life no more to find.
for everything that be just let it be,
why must the world so greed to he,
is'nt it so hard to love our heart,
the blood is not our love to God!
his eyes have fade,
in extend to that,
a side of him has lose his part,
no more beautiful burnish the dark,
so eagle fly without a but.
the song of heaven is merely night,
now men forgot thier roles and parts,
as the eagle fly soon we askin why,
no eagles sing no eagle cries!!

3.16 p.m

a flower of hope


the feeling inside is undescribably wonderful
for i have met someone that is angelic beautiful
the way you entered it lightens my heart
and i promise you my love we shall never be apart
all the love we share those storms come what may
the tears we shed with pains we bear
with the love here i shall never quit
at every step you missed i'll be the fire to lit
a future ahead upon a life to begin
i'm here inside waiting for you to walk in
and if it goes well from what i have seen
a future hint let your heart to be the queen.

6.05 p.m

Monday, August 16, 2004


"dad, u have a handsome son" :)

Sunday, August 15, 2004

Long-wang ~ The Dragon
You are Long-wang!
Mythological Background: Yes, the dragon represents
everything you think of when you think of a
dragon - fearsome and invincible. Also, it is
greatly respected just because of that fact.
The dragon has a very protective aspect to it.
Even Jupiter reminds you of intense smashing
power. The dragon is almost always surrounded
by rain-bearing clouds and fog; and the
appearance of its constellation always signals
rainfall and lightning. It's also a symbol of
authority worn by the nobility and the imperial
class. Japanese Name: Seiryuu.

Which Chinese Mythological Being Are You?
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I Am A Sinner

this blood that i shed i will remain in fear
for evil has taken my body and i am a sinner
could it be my soul evil has long after
please angel i dont ever want to have the same tear

is there no sun again for me to have
will there be no solace for me to share
i cry as a sinner that no one has ever care
this burden i keep as the devil keeps on stare

i regret for everyhting i have done
i admit God my soul has long be gone
the past that full of pain lingering like torn
the sins i remember once delipated in such of fond
will it be my last as my life is meant no more
should it makes no different if i decide not to enter the door
what risk i shall ever take just to be back at shore
for heaven mercy please save me from this burning core

4.36 pm
i am a sinner