Wednesday, February 23, 2005



I traveled for years, I might as well had forgotten
Roaming to each continent I could hardly search for
Every method I used and every route I ever journeyed
They did not satisfy me…
It is true I conquered you
Make love to your wives, kill millions of your pitiful sons
Every baby I forced to abortion
It did not satisfy me…
I did feel the shame
For the power invested in me I corrupted it
Burdening my throne I drowned by those sorrow souls
No lights for me to follow, nobody saves me from this dark hole
For the rest of my surviving kingdom
I will not let the woman stop from those tragic moaned
Let the blood flow from the human vain
So the suffering can endure all the pain…
It still did not satisfy me…

2.45 p.m
21st 02.05

Tuesday, February 22, 2005



A sample of human civilization that went sour
Total destruction caused by loser’s malfunction
Sweet little particles horrifying prick monsters
The system we once proud off now a total failure…
Generating the hatred, now we hunger for more power
Pacify your thirst pretending to be another
Weaknesses that should never be confessed cause it might be altered
Gaining the information from the land of no contradiction…
Experiment conventional terrifying the heart of our lonely souls
Real life control destructing the brain mole
For the guilt of time it demolishes within our control
Bring all the tendencies nearer to emotional enrolled…
The land of toxicity
Where we man are all meant to be…

2.47 p.m(during soca class)
Chaotic access

Monday, February 07, 2005

sound of the heart

i care

the world is getting lousy..
the people are getting crazy and it moves slowly to be a real clumsy
the clouds that i have seen,pouring its tears waiting for some kind of remedy
all that i can see before i left it behind so i can be with this tiny flea...
is it possible to stuck in here knowing that our existance is in the hands of the damned
why is it so hard to live in peace let be equal and be what ever we always wanted to be..
for once we lit all that only left and stop what ever time to hear our children's prayer
so we can share those happiness we once shared...
listening to the cries of children's laughing, rhymes of sweet jazz and souls...
watching our old fying kites above and sharing those juiciest durians that we really proud off...
but it still stand from where i have stand still...
a fact is still a fact whether we like it or how strong we are trying to avoid it...
bombs are everywhere and hatred is still man's wicked syndromes..
the dead bodies keep on counting and the fleshes are never going to stop itching...
how we wish these could be better someday,
so the flowers that we together planted, will bloom to its prettiest,most colorful it can ever be
and sound that always stuck inside here will again be heard and our children's smile be see...
i myself have long eagerly waiting,though i know that i might not be suitible to speak...
as my sins are too big and the will that most will contradict...i fear for that.
but a voice is still a voice,no matter how hard we try to shut...i still am a person.
still has a heart...passions that shared secrets and mind that will never stop calcullating...
i care...

7th february 05
sound of the heart



And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it's overI just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yhea you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am