gusar

pari-pari terbang terjah ribut
entah kenapa...

tapi aku agak suka.

all the money can't buy

I can be your fluffy white cloud that embrace you during the summer
That follows you wherever you may roam.
giving you the shelter
and keep you cool while you walk down the sandy beach alone.
I can be your song that you once madly listened to.
I'll keep it simple so you can understand the meaning of it.
capturing your heart at any given moment of your day
and turning it into the lullaby whenever you ask for it.
I can be the words of the helpless literature
and conjure that melts you down
I'll write you letters with those words
and turn it to tears of joy every now and then
just to see you shine to the brightest.
I can be whatever you restore in your memory lane
and dig it to the deepest core of what man may
I can be all the weird jargons and stay upbeat through every single day.
I can be everything that all the money can't buy
if only you were here yesterday
and had the patience to stay.

malam di hutan

malam ini
aku hinjak segala panorama hijau-hijau
yang leka mencuit sedikit demi sedikit hujung rongga
dengan deruan angin yang makin bersahaja
setelah hujan enggan bermain lagi.
insaf aku
bila halwa telinga memainkan muzik bukan manusia
sahut-sahutan unggas bercerita
tentang segalanya mengenai syurga
lalu sembunyikan segala keresahan yang membelenggu
sejak aku mula punya akal dan risau.
segala daun-daun tua yang jatuh longlai
menari ke kiri lalu kanan
lalu terbaring lemah atas air luas tak berwarna.
setapak melangkah lalu mencerminkan diri pada air.
ada nampak aku, bintang, bulan dan juga awan.
cantik hasil tuhan lantas melirik bibir aku puas
dengan hati yang masih dapat rasa
dan masih mampu menghayati ciptaan agung si Maha Satu.

dan saya sunyi

it's like talking to the ol' lady moon above
walking off to the dessert of Sahara in the deepest night
sharing stories with a roach
while your cat stares at you with uncertainties linger in her eyes
it's pretty much like a virus outbreak
and you are the only person alive
or seating on your leather sofa at 3 a.m
texting to non-existance someone
with smooth riding Jazz music flowing subtly in your ears
forcing every bit of your brain to compose a poem.
it's like everything is nothing
and your mind keeps contemplating.
it's like watching a silent movie
with a set of earphone stuck in your ear
no music whatsoever.
it's like a vacuum and and the black hole
sucking you closer to other's intervention
except there are none
but you.

Syuhada

Waktu belum menangis untuk kau tinggalkan nyawa.
sendirian tak berteman
kosong terperap dalam sangkar buruk lagi busuk.
jiwa kosong menunggu panggilan
kau bukan manusia mudah berhenti jalan
dan serahkan segalanya pada tuhan.
tak tertiup sangkar kala untuk kau mengeluh
lalu mendongak awan.
tanah subur tinggalan pejuang
untuk semua lumpur dan keringat peluh.
masih basah untuk kau cepat lepaskan
lawan kau tetap lawan
kerana itu yang engkau pegang.
minum sisa ilmu pegangan imam.
sampai hari bila bumi terlalu jelek untuk jadi saksi
atas segala seksaan, hinaan malapetaka segala tuduhan
yang kau terima.
dan bila akhirnya badan jatuh tinggal nyawa.
berhenti juga ia untuk kau bernafas semula
dan tiap nyawa yang pergi datang semula
lalu bawa kau masuk syurga.
dan pasti tersenyum bukan kerana itu yang kau mahukan
kerana jalan itu hampir sampai ke penghujungnya.

my innocence

I want you to die so I can breath free
happy and unnoticed without neither a slight guilt nor remorse
to play with the thought of unforgiven
that lingers everytime you were there
tempting me with faith i know I will never touch
I want to have the life I can lead to
not the one you tricked me into
with your wickedness
and your subtlest way possible
I want to be the one who fights you.
If tomorrow comes and rain still fall heavily on me
I want it wash you away and never set sail again
let you rot by the shore and die with my past
so I can start my dawn and have a cup of tea with my dearest bliss
my innocence is reaching me from within
caressing the purity and harnessing the light I have long crave for
but you whom I despise is still the master
and linger you still until the day you finally vanish.
O Lord, I hold still.
give me the strength so light prevails in me.

Bual jiwa

Jiwa tanya hati.
kalau kau mahu mati,
siapa yang kau mahu bawa.
Hati kata...
aku bawa kau.
kerna kalau manusia tahu.
Jiwa lebih berharga dari aku.

Aku manusia.
Sudah punya jiwa itu.